ahahahahah

next step? decide where to do my postgrad. somewhere out there is my future project advisor.

and somewhere out there is someone willing to offer me a scholarship. i hope.

ive got no confidence at all, which is why ive never even considered applying for one. but if im to do a postgrad i'll need a bloooody scholarship.

im excited, but uncertain. eager but apprehensive. odd mix.

which area to go in to? ocular disease? myopia? anterior eye?

i only know i suck at optics. its a sad fact, and one i hate to admit.

i feel like my head is going to explode

the thought of writing a thesis, 2 to 3 times longer than what i just submitted

the thought of real research - real analysis, reeeeally looking into data and journals

the thought of defending your ideas and conclusions

is my brain leaking from my ears?